Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Weathering The Storm


This morning was tough. My mindset wasn’t in the right place. So when the alarm clock sounded, I got up, but instead of staying up, I went to the couch. Usually, I start writing after my first cup of coffee, but this morning my thoughts were dark and sad, and I felt that I had nothing to share. 

I wallowed in my misery for a few hours and then I got up and decided to start my day. As I was looking for a quote on Pinterest, I came across this quote. It jolted me and I read it several times. It was then that I understood my sadness.

This is a test. Last week, I decided wholeheartedly that I was going to overcome all of my fears and truly pursue my health and fitness business. The last time I decided this, I fell and broke my elbow. And I ended up slowing down because I was healing, then I had surgery and had even more healing time. 

This time the challenge is my rib. It won’t stay in place and it just makes my life so hard. Honestly, I would love to get up each day and feel great. The constant struggle wears me down. But only when my mindset is wrong. When my mindset is in the right place, I can fight the battle and overcome each challenge. 

So today, I decided that I will fight back. I am so close to a breakthrough. I can feel it in my heart. Regardless of what the devil throws at me, I will bow my head and weather the storm. It’s not just about me. If I can get through the challenges, then I can teach others how to overcome them as well. 

Psalm 37:4-5 KJV 
Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

Love and blessings,


Candida

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

My Third Laser Treatment: No More Phantom Pain


Ever since my hand surgery, I have had phantom pain in my hand where the separation occurred. If I touched my hand on the left side near my pinkie finger, I felt it in my thumb. It was such a weird feeling.  At times, I even felt pain in the part of my hand that was removed. While it did get better, it still bothered me at times. 

After my last laser treatment, I felt a stabbing pain in the area where part of my hand was removed. It only lasted for a few minutes, and then it went away. The next morning, the phantom pain was gone and it has not returned. Now, I have feeling exactly where it should be. It is no longer rerouted to another area. When I talked to my doctor about it, he said that the nerve was probably damaged during the separation and the laser has helped it to heal faster. How wonderful is that?!

I am so grateful for the healing that I’ve already received in my hands. God is so good!

Today, was my third treatment and I am so hopeful for the scar on my arm. The damaged caused by the bands is complex. I’m at the point now that if I gain any muscle at all in my arm or shoulder, it hurts and becomes more restrictive. So while my new workout plan is definitely sculpting my shoulders, it is also causing me pain and perhaps the reason my rib is coming out of place. On the flip side, if I don’t workout I have pain. The constant pain gets on my nerves and today it just overwhelmed me. I’m at the point that I don’t know what else to do, so I am just trusting God to see me through this process, and to give me the healing that is His will for me. 

I will keep trying the laser treatments and believing that at any moment, it could relieve the pain in my arm and shoulder. Just like it took my phantom pain away. Today, I have pain in my arm and shoulder, but I also have hope and faith that it will get better. 


Love and blessings, 


Candida

Monday, January 16, 2017

What Is Your Dream?

Some days, I wake up excited and ready to start my day. Today, however, is not one of those days. Perhaps my body knows it is a holiday. Anyway, I am yawning, despite the fact that I got enough sleep, and I just want to sleep for a couple more hours instead of writing and working out before time to go to work. While going back to sleep may be what I want to do, it is not what I am going to do. Going back to bed, and giving into my temptations will not serve me. It won’t make me feel better, nor will it help me move closer to my dreams. So I’m wiping my watery eyes, from yawning, and putting forth an effort. 

The temptation to break my early morning writing and exercise habit is always in the back of my mind. This morning, before I was able to even develop a clear thought, my mind was searching frantically for excuses. We never get to the point in our lives, when the devil just gives up and leaves us alone. He is there every single day. In my dreams and my thoughts. It is his job to irritate me and try to prevent me from doing what needs to be done. But when I ignore him, and do what needs to be done anyway, regardless of how I feel, then I’m able to overcome him.

It’s not always easy. This morning, I didn’t have a single thought (other than my desire to go back to sleep). Sometimes I feel like I write the same things in my blog. But I still show up. Every. Single. Day. 

God is teaching me how to serve Him. The only way, I can learn is if I am obedient. If I want more, then I have to be willing to do more. So let me share with you what gets me out of bed on these early mornings. 

My dream is to have a non-profit organization where I help people who are struggling in their lives: physically, mentally, or financially. For years, I have visited schools. Some of the children in our community need help. I want to be able to help them. I also want to live on the lake. It is my dream to have a lake house. I would love to watch the sunrise over the water every morning. And I want to be physically able to work, for as long as I desire to work. For so many years, this dark cloud has hung over my head. Every once in a while, when I feel really bad for days or weeks, the demon raises its head and threatens to take away my ability to work and the things that I love to do. So I want to live my life by design. On my terms. I want to have the freedom to pay for my treatments that keep me going, without putting a financial strain on my family. And the freedom to rest and allow my body to heal, when I need to rest. 

In order to have all of that, I have to work hard now and be obedient. But one day, I will be writing as I watch the sunrise over the water. What is your dream? 

Love and blessings, 


Candida

Sunday, January 15, 2017

The Art of Compassion



A few days ago, God blessed me to have a conversation with a stranger. When I asked him how he was doing, he told me that he was just trying to survive. It wasn’t so much his words that touched me, but the pain behind his words. When I looked into his eyes, I could see a reflection of his heartache. And my heart went out to him.

Every day, no doubt, we walk beside someone who is hurting, feeling hopeless, helpless, and about ready to give up. While some people are excellent at hiding their emotions, others wear them on their sleeves. We don’t always know who is struggling, so we should be kind and compassionate to everyone that we meet. 

Sometimes we just need to recognize that the other person is us. How would we feel in their shoes? How would we want others to treat us? Once we humble our hearts, then we are able to help. I believe one of the greatest gifts that God gave to us is the ability to help someone else. 

Of all my success, nothing compares to the gift of connecting to a troubled soul, and being able to help them. So often we think that the only way we can help someone else is with money, but that’s not true. God has blessed me to use my story, words of encouragement, and kindness to reach thousands of people. A kind word is like a balm to a troubled soul. 

Today and every day, let’s reach out to the world with our love and kindness. Let’s use it to give them a little glimpse of our Lord and remind them, regardless of their situation, that someone loves them and there is hope. 

Love and blessings, 


Candida

Saturday, January 14, 2017

My Second Laser Therapy Treatment


On Friday, I had my second laser therapy treatment. This time my doctor even worked on the scar underneath my arm. This scar causes me so much trouble. It cuts into my bicep and tricep muscles and even my chest muscle. The damage, caused from the scar, is what we have determined that pulls my rib out of place, causes neck pain, and pain in my back muscles. Today, however, it feels better and my rib is in place. 

After my second treatment, my hands had less stiffness this morning. My ring on my left hand is so loose that it came off on its own. Usually, the swelling is so bad in my left hand that I struggle to get my rings off. My right hand has had swelling for as long as I can remember. Sometimes it gets better, but it never completely goes away. Until now. No swelling at all in my right hand. How amazing is that? 

Honestly, we don't know what will happen with the scar on my arm. While I am praying for complete and total healing of the damaged muscles, I will be so grateful for whatever the Lord gives me. Just a tiny fraction of healing would mean less pain and give me the opportunity to do more of the things that I love to do. Like write in my journal with an ink pen. Isn’t it funny at how sometimes it’s the little things that we desire?


Regardless of what happens, I can never be upset about the scar.  When I look at the X-rays and see how close I was to losing my arm, I’m so grateful for it. 

I will continue to post about this journey and keep you all updated. God continues to amaze me. Just when I start to lose hope that anything can be done for me, He gives me a thumb and hope of healing. 

Love and blessings, 


Candida 

Friday, January 13, 2017

How Bad Do You Want It?


Whenever we start something new, excitement guides us for a few days. When we are excited the possibilities seem endless. Our minds continuously come up with ideas, and ways to move forward. However, when the enemy sees our progress , he tries to derail our journey. And then, it all gets really hard. 

This is where we have to make a crucial decision, and answer some tough questions. We just need to make sure we are asking ourselves the right questions. Here are a few of my favorite questions.

  1. How bad do you want it?
  2. Why is it important to you?
  3. Can you quit without regrets?

When I ask myself these questions, I am reminded of why I want to do it. My why propels me forward and helps me to fight for what I want. If it was easy, everyone would do it. During my journey, I have wanted to quit so many times. When I am writing a book, I try to quit after each page. Because it’s hard. But I know that if I will just hang in there and trust the process, God will bless my efforts.

In all reality, we need to rid our minds of easy. Doing things that are easy, will not move us forward in our lives nor will it feed our soul. It’s the beautiful gift of overcoming the challenge that makes us feel accomplished. When we overcome the things that are so difficult for us, it strengthens us and teaches us important life lessons. 

Whatever your challenge, I pray that you will hang in there and keep going. Victory is on the other side of the struggle. 

Love and blessings,


Candida

Thursday, January 12, 2017

Breaking Old Patterns


Immediate results for any type of effort would be wonderful. We know, however, that it doesn’t always work that way. Actually, it very seldom works that way. 

I started my health and fitness journey in 2010. For the first few years, I dabbled in it. I ate a few salads, worked out occasionally, and wondered why I wasn’t getting the results that I wanted. It took me years to figure out that consistency was my problem.

I soon realized that if I only put in minimal effort, then I was only going to get minimal progress. If I wanted more then I had to do more. So I started being more consistent with my workouts and nutrition and I started getting the results that I wanted. 

For me, the key to my consistency has been discovered in my habits. I probably wrote more words in October, November, and December than I did the rest of the year combined. Why? Because I made it a daily habit to write a blog every day. 

It’s just as hard to break old habits as it is to create new ones. It takes a daily, conscious effort. Right now I am trying to train my left hand to use my thumb while I type. Just after typing 200 words, it is already hurting and irritating. I have to make it an effort to do this every day. It would be so much easier to allow my right hand to do all the work. That is how I learned to type, therefore breaking this pattern is challenging. But I didn’t go through surgery and months of pain for nothing. If I continue to use my left hand, eventually it will become a habit.

Habits help us to achieve our goals. The better our habits, the better that our life can become. When we replace the habits that are not serving us with habits that will help us propel forward, then we are taking control of our life. 

Motivation encourages us to start. Discipline keeps us going. And habits help us to stay focused, consistent, and ultimately reach our goals.

Love and blessings, 


Candida 

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