I got up early this morning. I made my coffee and read some, but when it came time to write my blog, I felt uninspired and defeated. Honestly, I didn’t even open my laptop because I felt like I didn’t have anything to give. So I went back to bed. When I got up a little while later, I was thankful for the silence and the space to talk to my Lord. Sometimes I love to just be alone with Him.
After lots of tears and prayers, I was able to ask Him for guidance and for peace. For the last few months, I feel as if the enemy is attacking me from every angle. Every time that I decide to serve the Lord with my whole heart, the enemy rages. He wants me to quit, give up, and just go back to being comfortable with my life. But the desire inside of me to do more beckons to me. I can’t go back.
This is when the warrior inside of me emerges. I will fight. Not with other people, but with the enemy inside of me. He’s in my mind. He has a problem for my every solution. The enemy works through my mind. All morning he has made me feel hopeless and defeated. However, there is power in prayer. It is my battle cry. And that is when my Lord arrives, ready and willing to help me.
I will defeat the enemy. Because I have hope. So often we smile and try to pretend that we aren’t struggling, but I’ve learned that it’s okay to struggle. It’s okay for us to have bad days. This is all part of the journey. Sometimes I need to get as low as possible so I’m in the right position to look up.
|Don't let this smile fool you! It took me until 1:30 p.m. just to get dressed today. Some days are just harder than others.|
Love and blessings,