Can you believe that I’ve written, and published I might add, 100 blogs in the last 100 days? When the idea first came to me, I dismissed it. In my mind, I didn’t believe that it was possible. My excuses were as follows:
- I don’t have the time to blog everyday.
- I won’t have anything to write about.
- No one will read my daily blog.
If there is one thing that I have learned about serving God, it is that we don’t have to have it all figured out to start. I stepped out in faith, believing that if He wanted me to blog every day, then He would provide the content, the audience, and show me how to find the time in the 24 hours that He gives me every single day. So it became a priority in my life. I wrote when I felt bad, when I didn’t have a thought, and when it was the hardest to get words on paper. And l learned how to make the time.
Some of the blogs, I enjoyed writing. And some of them, I hated the vulnerability that I felt. Sharing my journey about my surgery was the hardest, and most rewarding. Through the tears and uncertainty, God showed me that if I really want to help people, then I have to be willing to share it all. I can’t wait until I have it all figured out. Sometimes the greatest gift is found in the imperfection.
Before starting this journey, I would analyze every word and spend hours and weeks on one blog post. I missed so many opportunities to share because I was trying to make it all perfect and because I didn't want to share the pain, until I had it all figured out. Perfection, however, doesn’t inspire or help anyone. If I have time, I definitely try to make sure that I eliminate the mistakes, but it doesn’t always work that way. Sometimes I get it finished in the nick of time, and have to just publish it. The first few times I found mistakes after I had published it, it almost paralyzed me again, and made me want to stop blogging.
Now I just go with it. I would rather publish a raw post, filled with emotion and a few mistakes, than to publish a perfect post void of connection. Above all, this is me. I have good days and bad days. And I share them all with you. Thank you for reading my blogs and for sharing your stories with me. That is my favorite part.
Love and blessings,