I loved to blog! At least I did until the devil convinced me
otherwise. Negative thoughts broke through my defenses and persuaded me to
stop. So I listened.
A yearning, however, to write, share, and connect with
others still beckoned to me. For a while, I even believed my writing wasn’t
good enough to share. Then I concluded this is my journal—my thoughts,
feelings, and hardships. It’s not about writing perfect, but about being real.
So let’s catch up!
Perhaps the reason I stopped sharing was because my emotions
were all over the place. It’s been a roller coaster ride with my health. And, I
guess, I just needed time to adjust, especially when the bad news was
delivered.
Hearing things like “You’ll never get better.” “You’re disabled.”
“You should quit your job and focus on finding a treatment.” hurts on so many
levels.
It’s even harder when my body confirms what my mind hears.
Every day that a new nodule surfaces or a new location swells upsets me. When I
can barely walk or use my hands, it scares me. Because even though I try to remain
positive and walk by faith, my subconscious wonders. If what I’ve been told my
whole life is true.
Is my body incurable? Will I get worse?
Even though I try to be focused, determined, and positive
about it all, still I struggle at times. I don’t want the enemy to destroy me! So
I have decided to try a different approach and work on self-healing. I already
know and understand that God is not going to heal my physical scars (and I
truly don’t want Him to), but I believe that He can help me overcome my
hardships. Instead of being upset with my body, I want to nurture and love it. I
want to be the best me that I can be! And by no means am I ready to give up! This
is my life and I refuse to allow anyone or anything to take it from me!
My wellness plan:
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Pray
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Seek God’s guidance and wisdom
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Read His word daily
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Spend more time with loved ones
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Laugh often
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Smile
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Healthy, gluten free lifestyle
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Exercise at least five times a week
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Take vitamins and herbs for the conditions
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Try to get at least 7 hours of sleep each night
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Meditate
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Keep a gratitude journal
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Write as often as possible
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Ultimately believe that my body will heal
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Love unconditionally
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Continue on my life’s purpose
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Find the problem areas in my life and work on
fixing them
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Spend at least a few minutes each day outside
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Ignore the negative voice always trying to stop
and hurt me
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Be brave
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Be optimistic
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Be an Overcomer
Is there a part of your life that needs nurturing? Are you
the best you that you can be? I truly believe that we all have the ability to overcome
our hardships. I recently read a quote that stated pain is inevitable, but suffering
is optional.
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| This day I was in so much pain that it took everything inside me just to smile. |
