God amazes me! He can take something small, and bless it to be exactly enough. That’s how I feel about my left hand. My whole life, I’ve only been able to use the one finger on my left hand, but He has blessed my abilities to exceed my disabilities on any given day. And now He has blessed me with more. Now, I have a thumb.
Today, I can move my thumb outward as well as inward, and spread my hand. This morning I couldn’t move it at all, so I removed the bandage myself. Yeah, I know it’s not Friday, but I won’t tell my doctor if you won’t tell. :) I just had to see if I could move my thumb at all. After a few minutes of concentration, determination, and prayer it moved—and my heart was overjoyed once again. Now the muscle is so sore. It has reached exhaustion on several occasions today, but I continue to move it. Why? Because I can. With the pain of moving it comes the joy of seeing and feeling it move.
I can’t even express the gratitude in my heart. God gives me enough of everything that I need. During my darkest moments, He always gives me a spark of hope. And He will do the same for you.
As I was driving home from work today— I declared myself healed this morning and decided to get back to work—I thought about how there is more than one way to do things. For the last few weeks, I have pushed my boundaries and discovered so many new ways to do every day things. When we really try and explore our creative side, we will amaze ourselves. I tried to never use the words “I can’t” during my healing process, but instead I focused on discovering new ways. So often we poison our mind with our words and limiting beliefs. I have learned through out my life, when determination meets with faith, however, anything is possible.
Here is a before and after of my hand. For anyone who wants the medical terminology, my doctor did a release of complex syndactalized thumb and index hypoplastic digits with full thickness skin graft on me.
In other words, he reconstructed my hand and gave me a thumb. :)